The loss~

I am signed up on a few yahoo groups websites. Two mothers' I know of had stillborn babies within a month of one another. I read their emails. Looked at one with pictures. My heart absolutely aches for these mothers. When I saw the pic of the empty nursery and the pic of the angel in the crib.... I lost it. Truly is there anything more trying in life than losing your own baby? Full term perfect infants...with no heart beat. I don't know how these mothers were able to let that baby out of their arms. It makes me sob today. It is important for me to focus on my two lil boys. It is a blessing to me that I never miscarried or lost my babies. As hard as some days are for me with the special challenges we face...my lil ones are here with me...and now I don't want to let them go. I will try and reflect on this entry and be grateful for the days, minutes, and hours I get to spend with my little ones! My heart goes out to woman all around the world who have lost a child and my thoughts are with you. To angel baby's Elsa and Georgia may you visit your mothers often in dreams and know your mother loves you. Through their loss it has allowed me to grow and be a better mother today and always~