Chronic~

Bloody hell my back is NOT well...

I haven't slept much in a few days...

Im completely overwhelmed and ready to scream... shout...cry...

I would do whatever works at this point...

I have prayed

I have been zen

I have ignored it

I have seen orthopedic specialists & chiropractors,

I have had the deepest tissue massage that one can imagine (Rolfing)

I have had countless needles poked into me (acupuncture)

I have had a spinal steroid injection

I have endured a 38 min. MRI (Buried alive type experience ICK: Claustrophobic!)

I have cried

I have yelled

I have been mean

I have sworn

I have showered, bathed, sauna'd, sweated, shivered, iced/hot packed...

I have thrown things

I have taken countless medications and given them a true shot...

I have blamed myself and others

I have worked out (yoga, swimming, stretching, running, biking, and more)

I have sat and waited....

Today Im out of words, out of energy, out of ideas... I don't want chronic back pain to win me over....

I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!

I want to see even a glimpse of light at the end of my tunnel....