1 more month~

holy crapness i turn the big 30 next month. like for realios that is now like turning 50. i talked to my bro who also had issues when he turned 30.... it perhaps may be time for the midlife crisis...   does that mean i suddenly get: fake bewbs, a hotrod, a stellar makeover, a sports car, a NEW house, weekly manicures, and i turn into a crazy cougar??? NAH~ i think i will be just fine....although i does feel old. when i turn 40 my kids will be graduating high school....  time flies...Especially when you are having fun! so i just keep on keeping on~ 

white sass rap @#$%

you make me you brake me you go ahead and spank me

you blow me you show me what you is really made of

you ain't got nothin to offer here

so i leave the past behind with zero fears

you haulin empty  baggage 

you steppin onto the ledge

you is blind to the realism 

what's goin' on in your head?

baby look down and you is DEAD

been nothin but real and

you is everythin fake 

all your questionin mind and 

glimpses of hate

you was a friend o' mine

always cuttin in line

thinking bout you first

and not the person behind~

and your faith means nothin

and your sins mean more

friendship ain't in dat head o' yours

you lack all meaning that humanity makes

and people give and you just take

i'm done givin to a Nothin like you~

 

Word! 

HOORAY~~

YOU ROCK MR. Gabers!!!! We had parent teacher conference and we have great news.....Gabe is no longer needing extra services such as occupational therapy, speech therapy, and resource.  Here is his "I DID IT" photo.......

And here is Gabe saying:

" I rock who's the man, I am SOoooooo Coolllllllllll"

THANK YOU!!!

30.......vs.....60+

Why must it be a problem that I  have certain beliefs that differ from my parents? Why must I receive email after email from both sides of my family that tell me what I believe is  wrong.... Why must my family make the decision to push me away further and further by forcing me to see their side.  We have differences about: race, religion, politics, abortion, raising children, gun rights....and so forth...Being different isn't Being bad!  I have asked for nothing but peace between us. Although my family and I don't see eye to eye on many of lifes issues I know that I do believe in the importance of family. It seems as if pushing us away who think differently is much more important than loving us despite our differences.... It plagues me to TRY and wrap my mind around how they are being what they are taught is "Christ-like."   Perhaps  I was wrong when I thought acceptance of humanity and all our differences is a universal language. Perhaps it is impossible for others to understand how 1 can be happy without seeing the same light as they, the same God, the same same same...... 

So...I keep going and daily try to be a better race, a better human, a better mother, a better daughter, a better woman, a better soul....because I have tomorrow to be better and the next day to be even better than that! Perhaps I die as 1 does one day....than my "better-ness" lives on within all whom crossed my path~ because I choose to believe we are far more alike than we are different!  

Take it! Take it far far away.......

MIGRAINE HELL!!

I went on a birth control 3 months ago. (depo-provera) Unfortunately,  I had many ill side effects. I gained OVER 20 pounds, have suffered from countless migraines for the past 3 months, and have had zero energy due to depression. I didn't go into taking depo blindly, I had a good history of taking this medication, this time around I have learned my lesson. No longer am I going to worry about being on my moon cycle ;). I shall embrace womanhood/PMS=excuse for being the way I am!!! lol

I just know I can't wait to be back to my "normal"! Grrrr........

"ONE PLANET ONE LIFE"

drowned us in your oil,

keep us in this fucked up crisis,

feed our children with your sales from your many homes Mr. .......!

give me your fake

 smile & lie through those wine/coffee stained teeth- 

saying you will change our world.

change it.....tell me how/when

 give me a YOUR  answers -

expect me to pay this health care?

take womens choice away?

keep those fighting from their homes & families? because....why....you did it? 

you served as many others did, 

you lived to tell us about it...sucks to be you!

put a new price tag on my home? name a price....any price? Lower our interest/tax rates for/how/when???

OUR USA is in CRISIS!  "the worst crisis EVER, worse than in 1929" (suze orman) 

WAKE UP AMERICANS!!!!!

UNITE-                                                                                     

I fight to keep sane in this time of complete insanity.

take off the blindfolds

quit  doubting

follow intuition

DENIAL takes us where? 

There are no quick answers~

 but lets pull our heads out of the sand, get our ass in gear and VOTE.....

I don't want to hear  complaints-

I just want my good USofA back and BETTER!!!

 

Grrrr......HAIR SUX-

I hate hate hate growing out my hair..... I haven't had hair down to my chin in YEARS. I get this comment frequently: "Tiff, you could be so pretty if you just grew out your hair."  I could so pretend it doesn't bother me and next time I will comment back:  "IF YOU had a nose job, no man bewbs, and a bigger pecker YOU could be attractive too." I am TRYING to grow out my hair...seriously I am, but it is agony. Perhaps if I were more "girly" than it would be easier....but I'M NOT!!!!  Hair is kinda stupid in fact..... I look at the famous women  and over half of them have FAKE hair... I am talking extensions.....let's get these women to be free of this bullshit....NO we all don't have FULL THICK CURLY hair..... we are boring.... LET US ALL BE BORING....and let our hair down....(shoosh, I know mine goes only to my ears). UGH.... I better be startin' to get cute now damnit..... ;)  

IT'S WHAT WE DO!!!!

Here is a pic of my boys at Lowes on a Saturday building a FREE pirate ship. They have free classes on Saturdays for the kiddos. It was entertaining for them and hell they're boys.....they must have hammering skillz!  I personally like their FREE aprons!  The second picture is of the boys at the Autism Carnival at Wheeler Farm. It was our first year going and YES we will be going next year. They had SO much to do there. Gabe enjoyed his blue cotton candy a RARE treat for my kiddos. We fit right in at the place and it was lovely. There were bounce houses, slides, food, scavenger hunt, tactile things, bubbles, and much more. I decided I really need to join a parents support group for Autism. Life can be tough and it would be really amazing to connect with other parents! So that was our lil weekend. I didn't spend a dime..... probably cuz  I  didn't have a dime to spend. I had fun the boys all had fun and that is what counts..... Stay tuned on how I can be as creative every weekend! 

Seasons Change:

I know seasons change and sometimes that is good.....but I REALLY love sunlight, and I don't look forward to the lack of sunshine and warmth. I already feel seasonal affective disorder startin' creeping like an evil tangly weed....not so nice. So to carbs, and bread, and soda and bed....HERE I COME!!!! ugh....*sigh