these are a few of my fav. things~

My contribution to earth day, hopefully we are all doing our part EVERY day to help our environment and ourselves....  

A lil bit of what we do: 

*We have a compost bin in our backyard. Less food down the drain and in the garbage.

*We recycle EVERYTHING we possibly can.... and we also do our best to buy used things Craigslist and KSL  are some wonderful sights and have about everything you would need!

*All the light bulbs in our home are Compact Florescent One bulbs...uses 75% less energy and lasts 10x longer!

*We use re-usable grocery bags whenever we shop...not just for food but for everything.

*When things no longer fit or are usable for us we donate locally.

*We shop and eat organic foods. (i still drink coke, i have to have one vice in life;)

*Something simple: we shut down our computers at night and all lights. The kids have LED night lights...perfect!! 

*All of us use water bottles we purchased from REI (BPA free) My kids enjoy their OWN cool cups and drink plenty of water!!

*we have a clothes line, to dry our clothes... i plan on using it now that our fence is up (no my undies won't be out there)

*We enjoy riding trax with our kids when going downtown!

*We don't turn on our AC until July. We keep our home cool with blinds, and good windows.

*We grow our own garden but we also buy local when we can. The SLC farmers market is great to go attend... 

*take your own fav. coffee mug to your coffee shops you visit... 

We are doing just a lil every day but there is always more we could be doing. I urge you as my friends or family to try and think of ways you can better our future and the environment!! Send me a reply of things you feel you can change!

tomsshoes.com

ONE FOR ONE: buy a pair of shoes and toms donates to another child in need. 

I bought a pair of toms shoes 10 months ago. I also purchased one of their bags they sold that fed a child for an entire year, and allowed them to attend school. I was happy to see that toms is getting the word out there and am a happy supporter of their cause!!!

clarkplanetarium.org

Perfect for planet awareness. My family enjoys going to the planetarium, we usually buy a yearly pass. They have wonderful shows and some in 3D and light shows... fun for kids... fun for parents!

getridofthings.com

This is a useful sight I go to...it has everything... on gardening, to green cleaning, to personal care... 

For the ladies out there just visit this sight... it is really cool and if you have questions email me cuz I likely have the answers!!! :)   lunapads.com

Whatcha doin~

so much on my mind. crashing waves of which way to go. my kids are getting older as days go by and i get to make the choice as to what to do when they are in school. from 9-3:30pm the time is mine....so now what? i dread schooling as it has never been easy for me. i suffer with ADHD and lack the ability to memorize things. i struggle because i want to be home when my boys are home and yet i want to make enough money that it helps our family out.  i do better with being my own boss and doing things on my own time. it seems there are few options. doula work has been tougher on me the last 2 years, being on call is extremely rough lasting 4 weeks 24 hours a day.... i shouldn't be so stressed but i am. as soon as my mind is made up for a flexible career then i will gladly accept full breathes again. i feel like a burden on my family lately.... my stress has affected my health, energy, and definitely my patience...  it would be lovely to just have the answers at what i can do. i yearn to be successful and find something i really enjoy doing. im looking at massage therapy something i have been interested in for two decades. i feel really lost in a deep sea.....somewhat stranded and just no clue of which way to go..... all that i hear is: "just keep swimming"! 

her best~

today has been a moody bleak black day for me i cannot begin to explain the frustrations that are within my being. i look within the mirror and wishful thinking asks to leave all the negativity within the glass and that which is staring back may go on with vitality and positivity. i have those days as most humans do that just frustrate you til the energy inside my brain and heart are met within my entire inner skeleton and time is the only thing that allows the frustration to vanish. control of all things is something i wish to attain....however, when one becomes a mother you relinquish control, and selfishness. one thing in this life i fail to understand is how others in this life allow themselves to judge me. i retire to bed each night asking myself what better i can do tomorrow (that is addition i would say). my best is never enough for others. when one human tells another that they are failing....what gives them the right to say: "you aren't doing your best"? there is nothing more haunting to me than wanting to please the human race that knows me. most days i fail and today was a day that was better than yesterday but it still isn't enough.....   i found some lyrics to a song that i changed up and here is how my version goes: 

she feels her pockets for her cigarettes, sometimes she forgets she gave em up.

she starts feeling like she needs a drink, cuz she knows it'll help her not to think.

And she's told herself before....what's it gonna hurt to have one more.

because it's hard to live with her regrets, but life ain't over yet so she tries her best.

she starts thinkin' that she's gonna cry, then she remembers why she gave it up....

cuz it's not worth the pain life's put her through, but it was all that she could do.

but sometimes she wants to go home, it's just too hard to feel alone. 

she's tryin to live with her regrets, cuz life ain't quite over yet.

so tomorrow comes and she tries her best and today she cries her pain away

let it out and let it go, life is life she has lil' control.... 

because it's hard to live with her regrets, but life ain't quite over yet just waitin' for her tomorrow cuz it ain't over.....

After kids I gotta:

Trying to settle down....take time to lay around and take in a few....  I have been crazy lately doing a TON of research on the computer about Dyslexia. I didn't know a lot about Dyslexia and throughout the entire year have asked my son's teacher if he had signs of it....  All I got outta her was a rude laugh as she explained he was completely normal and proceeded to tell me: "There is nothing wrong with him, I can't even imagine that he has Autism. You need to practice with him blah blah blah, I just don't understand why he can't get it we have been practicing blah blah blah all throughout the year." I left parent teacher conference with a feeling of discontent I was sick in my stomach that something wasn't right. My son had been doing his work, I had no idea why he wasn't picking up on some of these cues she was speaking of.... UNTIL I researched for days about Dyslexia.  Numerous signs were there that he indeed has it, there is absolutely no question in my mind. Jared came home and read all about it too, he was saddened and bitter that he too fit all the signs of Dyslexia as well. Throughout my marriage I have heard Jared speak of all of his struggles in reading/writing/spelling  I never really knew what Jared's true diagnosis was until we READ about it. I was sick, Jared was sick and I made many phone calls. (We have options thankfully.)  We had those who test for Dyslexia tell us that he likely has it as it is highly inherited.  We will be doing official testing for Gabe shortly.....however it is another thing that isn't covered by insurance and SADLY isn't considered a learning disability.  I went and spoke with the special education instructors at the school, her response was: "I don't know much about Dyslexia, we don't really deal with it here."  Awwww shoot me in the chest already....  Once Gabe is "officially" diagnosed I will be able to change his IEP at his school. One other option is we can apply for a scholarship and he can go to a private school here in Sandy that caters to children with Dyslexia.  I don't write this in hopes of getting people to feel sorry for me or for Gabe.... I write this because my son dislikes himself, he despises reading, writing, spelling he sweats when he reads, he is surely stressed and NOW I know why!!!! The answers were in me without even knowing the real meaning of Dyslexia. So my job now..... do what I can to just teach him a different way of reading/writing/spelling.... to do what I can to get my son to smile when he "gets it"  instead of running away feeling bad about himself....       I cry as I write this. Early treatment is key and that is all I can start with. The hardest part..... wishin' and hopin' and thinkin' and prayin'  and just waiting~

Here's lookin' at 30!

holy perfect birthday. all due to an amazing hubby. he got me an absolute beautiful scarf (HE picked out) and a matching bracelet that is "totally" ME!!! he got a sitter for my boys and we went out to a lovely dinner. yes he wined and dined me! :D   it was romantic and wonderful and peaceful and awwwww just PERFECT! we had time to go to the mall and shop my fav store. he picked me out some cute lil panties....(his gift really) and he bought me a cute chic bohemian/hippy dress with a black scarf..... i was in awe the WHOLE day. he even made me my fav dessert of berry crisp....with vanilla ice-cream. for the entire 10 years we have been together this was the FIRST time Jared did it ALL on his own. I am one lucky 30 year old!!! My man impressed me and truthfully i am STILL smilin'! 

mirror mirror on the wall~

you know her

that girl

look at her over there-

i think its her

you know

that one!

are you sure?

well yes i think so,

it seems like her

it should be, 

it has to be....

hmmmm

why does she just sit there like that?

i wonder what she's thinking?

wonder where she's going...

now her eyes...they tell a story

whats her story?

Name? Guess...

who does she think she is??

1 more month~

holy crapness i turn the big 30 next month. like for realios that is now like turning 50. i talked to my bro who also had issues when he turned 30.... it perhaps may be time for the midlife crisis...   does that mean i suddenly get: fake bewbs, a hotrod, a stellar makeover, a sports car, a NEW house, weekly manicures, and i turn into a crazy cougar??? NAH~ i think i will be just fine....although i does feel old. when i turn 40 my kids will be graduating high school....  time flies...Especially when you are having fun! so i just keep on keeping on~ 

white sass rap @#$%

you make me you brake me you go ahead and spank me

you blow me you show me what you is really made of

you ain't got nothin to offer here

so i leave the past behind with zero fears

you haulin empty  baggage 

you steppin onto the ledge

you is blind to the realism 

what's goin' on in your head?

baby look down and you is DEAD

been nothin but real and

you is everythin fake 

all your questionin mind and 

glimpses of hate

you was a friend o' mine

always cuttin in line

thinking bout you first

and not the person behind~

and your faith means nothin

and your sins mean more

friendship ain't in dat head o' yours

you lack all meaning that humanity makes

and people give and you just take

i'm done givin to a Nothin like you~

 

Word! 

HOORAY~~

YOU ROCK MR. Gabers!!!! We had parent teacher conference and we have great news.....Gabe is no longer needing extra services such as occupational therapy, speech therapy, and resource.  Here is his "I DID IT" photo.......

And here is Gabe saying:

" I rock who's the man, I am SOoooooo Coolllllllllll"

THANK YOU!!!