tranquility~

oh glowing beauty of radiant light.  Allowing our earth life and death. With the creation of a new day, and a picture to capture an ending night...........breathe in breathe out....and enjoy your day!

socially overstimulated......

This last week was TOO MUCH!!!!  Jared went outta town earlier in the week, that means single motherhood (ICK).  To top off my lovely weekend we had a family reunion.....2 in fact. YES,  that would mean one on each side.... Jared and I each have 8 siblings...what does that mean? It means HELL, SOCIAL HELL!  A house/cabin full of people in 100 degree heat, with crappy food, moody children, no sleep, gassy bodies, 1 bathroom, and onery me. Thankfully there was no debating of religion or politics. HOWEVER  one memorable event happened (past Heber,UT).....  I  ALONE ended up lost in my VW bus looking for a BRIDGE that  couldn't be missed cuz duh it was a bridge......BUT....it wasn't anywhere to be found......i drove on...in my bus that I had only driven 3x, this is a VANAGON people... damn BIG, a 3 point U-turn is NOT FUN on thin canyon roads, and  it was a stick shift that I wasn't use to....going on unknown curvy roads....I was looking for many children and adults from the family who decided to go down a lazy river on tubes, who begged me TO GO, WHICH I persisted that I shouldn't (had a bad feeling bout it). They talked me into going; I was just to read my book and pick them up at the end of the river along side "THE BRIDGE".  NO CHILDREN/ADULTS to be found and NO BRIDGE!!!  What would you have done people???? I SWORE, I talked aloud.... I even resorted to prayer....yeah...HUGE DEAL . I drove back and forth miles and miles to try and find a host of sopping wet people along the road...and POOF there they were....NO BRIDGE to be found....but there they were all with smiling faces.....saying I arrived just in time. WAS I SMILING????  FUCK NO!!!! I was flipping off the asswipe that gave me the shitty directions. I didn't laugh! I so coulda had a beer after that fiasco,  I even leaked that out to my father... for once I don't think he could blame me!  fun times..... or not!

Different is goo.....

i like myself when.... i wear my funky shoes......YES THESE ONES!!! and especially when  i dye my hair how i feel that day (cha the color is BLUE/BLACK).... and know i can change it whenever i want and i feel awesome cuz my hubby doesn't give a hoot....dat is RADNESS! he's still tracted to me even when i go psycho and shave my head (b4 Brittney Spears).  Everyone should try fake lashes and suck in the enjoyment as your (my) hubby laughs.....and i tell him they aren't permanent cuz i got no glue :(   AND.... I like myself because.....because because because because because....CUZ of the wonderful things I DOES!!!!